06﹣12﹣2010... 15:57
感恩。我不值,但已經得到了許多。
小時候不懂珍惜機會,封閉自己,現在終於後悔沒能經歷那珍貴的一切。做了那麼多年「獨行俠」,其實很羨慕人家有所謂「隊友」,所謂「合作無間」的拍檔。
nah... 那些日子已經過去,在世日子越長久,可塑性就越低,機會越少,路向也越來越窄。 畢竟興趣太多太廣,想做的事甚多,可是能力太低。不想弄得這樣唏噓,惟有好好把握每個機會,也好好珍惜現有的朋友,伙伴,有默契的人。
玩運動,看見有人事後過良久還在喘氣,實在慚愧。很想衝破心理關口,不遺餘力,認真地玩。費盡心思力氣精神意志,跨過一幅牆:人生有這樣一刻,無憾。音樂的話,實不喜比賽,只因自覺藝術並非用來爭競。極力上盡的心態只為更上一層樓和與人分享、交流的喜悅。鬥心與好勝心,只能於體育尋找,也有不一樣的喜樂。
音樂上,也要改變一下態度,至少改變每次只粗略練習和預備不足的懶散習慣,至少不要那樣自閉,說多點,解釋多點。有時懶,只會讓自己陷入更甚的麻煩。
現在很虛浮,好像永沒有實際的希望和盼望,實不建議人羨慕。孤身去闖的路不易走。奈何這已不是第一次……有時想想,或許「不自量力」也是一種幸福,畢竟相對的那一方才會見到現實的殘酷。幸而自己除了勇於打擊自己外,還更勇於漠視困難、無視流言蜚語,「死撐」。
另外,放棄永遠是容易的,可是真的不想再失去更多,後悔更多。我也不得不承認自己太貪心了點, 就是心不夠狠。或許是代價,或許是祝福。
心裏有千言萬語想說,可語言系統有待改善。
23-09-2010... 03:47...
Phew! and dats another day. Thx everyone for all your blessings thru fb, msn and sms!
Thx for the cake, Thx for the dinner, thx for the dessert time, & thx for the chat afterwards! LOL i had a great time
Time's limited since i have to take some rest for another day wif Armstrong mates! hope i wun fall into illness this time lol
well here comes a piece written on 21/9, recorded on 22/9, called 'Progress'. take a look at the description :P
nite
16-09-2010... 17:12...
oh it's been a long time since i last typed my entry, well but actually i'm just here to post my vid LOL ah btw it's the first time for me to type a weblog by a mac (oh it's bloody marvelous)! LOL anyway here's the vid. actually i nearly forgot i could post it on xanga ~__~ just wanna leave sth up here.
here u go
still finding a job, fingers crossed anyway
12-07-2010... 21:15...
dun ever drop ur tears in front of ur family, else u'll be in a big big trouble
05-07-2010... 03:37... For so many years have i been living in the world created by u... i must quit, to leave myself less borrowed trouble... & also for u, the other recall, pls just leave me alone & dun ever come back again! i dun wanna anymore nightmares of dat kind... argh! activities are for ignoring probs, but not for forgetting things... but without 'em, probs get more serious & uncontrolled...